I wanted to be in a state of hibernation in last few days. I was really trying hard to be in that state. I didn't wanted think anything, react to anything. I was just passively looking at things happening around me. I just wanted to be a witness. I was just trying to do things as they they come and pass on time.
This state definitely sounds quite boring. But I felt a peace inside me during this period. I was just doing three things throughout the day..Work in office, Gym and guitar at home. Nothing else was on mind and I wasn't even thinking about anything else. I was so dissolved in all this.
I didn't realize how this time passed and though I worked hard on the things I was doing, I never felt tired, bored or needed any effort to do I was doing. There was no contradiction in me about what I was doing.
Many times having discussions with friends on failures and successes in life and how one should handle them, we had a consensus on process is important and not the outcome. We spend most of the time in process and that is why we should try to enjoy the process without worrying about the outcome.
May be running for results will not give you what you want. You may realize this after running and achieving for what you wanted to run. You will say what is next..and we will keep on creating newer and newer milestone looking for something which we also will never know
I don't want to say that one should strive to find out what he is looking in his life. I am not saying that one should look for something eternal and leave out search of ephemeral. It is to realize there is nothing to achieve..there is nothing to conquer..there is nothing to own...life doesn't have any grandeur purpose may be....
My last para may sound a bit nihilist :) but cant help it..This is what I was feeling throughout this time. Coming back to running.. instead for running for the sake of achieving something..why not run for the sake of running..Isn't this quite simple...Message by Krishna or Forrest Gump is the same... I just felt like running :)
