I have been thinking from last few days about this. I have been trying to get into all our basic motives. I have been asking myself why I am doing whatever I do? What prompted me to do so..
What I am looking to achieve through all my ambitions I cherished so far? Will I get whatever I want even after fulfilling my ambitions?? What I am really looking in my life?? While taking any decision in life whether I asked myself this question that is this what I am really looking for???
All this questions pointed me to study formation of myself. How I am as I am? Why I am as I am?
This is like debugging your own source code. I found it extremely simple and extra-ordinarily difficult at the same time. The easy part is all answers are within you, toughest being to be frank with yourself. You need to look at yourself as a subject.
This way I have been discovering causality of all my actions, motives, ambitions, joys, sorrows, crying, laughters. Worst thing is I could see the why I have a particular set of notions, ideas, beliefs. And this brought me a terrible feeling of being manipulated by my surroundings. Whatever beliefs, notions, ideologies I had were functions of what I have read so far or deeply hidden in my unconscious.
Till this moment, I realized I was byproduct of my surroundings. My very own thinking process was conditioned to work in a specific way with some assumptions. Our actions are function of our thinking ..thinking is function of memory ..and this very memory is conditioned by our society. So, in short we are biochemical robots programmed by society living in an illusion that we are master of our own life which is in fact one more illusion :). Wah!!!!!
So, these intelligent people achieving bigger and brighter things in the world are really kind of intelligent but unaware machines doing a job (program thread) written by their surroundings.
I strongly believe, this kind of intelligence will lead us nowhere. This intelligence must transcend existing notions of intelligence and should culminate into awareness. This awareness should help us understand our own source code. We should rethink our own source code and should delete part which makes no sense to us. Keep the part which makes sense to us. This process of restructuring your own self is really interesting and peacemaking. The deeper you go life becomes very simple.
It is not a process which will make you more logical. It will make you more natural. It will lead you to a freedom that is so Pure that just thought of it makes me cry. This freedom will re-discover your innocence which you think you lost but it was always within you hidden behind shells which created in the name of growing old.
For no reason you can feel like crying...any hint of music will make you feel I wanna dance... Any smile will make you feel I wanna dissolve in this smile...
That is why I feel Intelligence should Culminate into awareness... otherwise it is useless(to you ..not to society)..
