Beliefs!!!

Your Beliefs become your thoughts
Your thoughts become your words
Your words become your actions
Your actions become your habits
Your habits become your values
Your values become your destiny!!!


Stumped!!!! Thanks Mahatma Gandhi!!

hmm.....

     Its always unpredictable. How life will take you. so much is said about life. I don't want to write more of the same thing a;ready written. but yes..time is amazing. you are always under some kind of the spell or another. Everyday you change.Everyday you discover some new part of yourself. Everyday when you wake up and open your eyes..what are you thinking? What makes you wake up everyday and what is that that pushes you out of your bed. Is that push is from inside you ..telling you to take on world or is it your boss who is deciding when you should press the panic  button to get out the bed.

   so many questions are still unanswered.  The more try to decipher yourself, the more you get lost. the more you try to understand meaning of your day to day activities, more you get lost. One thing I have realised is ...your life...you own it..being emotional doesn't always help. you have to be practical. Cause you never know, never guarantee who will be there for you when you need the most..no matter how many times you are there for that person..can you guarantee that person will be ever there for you. May be you will realise one day people you want to be by your side when you want them to be..will not be there..unless you are very lucky!!!

  After all you have to realise to be comfortable to be what you are. Then you don't care what the world thinks of you. Cause you don't need to explain things to your people who know you. If you need to explain..then there is a problem. 

  Its about the process of finding the drive to get up everyday. Eagerly waiting for the alarm to ring.saying... Yes..Thanks you sun for coming on time...Want everyday giving hope..to look forward to..Want everyday..to be   not just another day..want it to be celebration of life time..trying to make it that way..to give everyday..The BEST of me!!!

set it right!!!!

At times when something happens..or something is going to happen, you feel something is not right with it. Everything seems to be setting in a nice place and suddenly it looks like, what is happening now...??? You wanna scream and stop whats happening..but you cant!!! Cause no one understands meaning of your screams....!!! hundreds of right steps and one wrong step can screw it up!!! You don't know where it all went wrong!!!

Thats life!!! And you feel like singing...understanding its meaning

It's not
What you thought
When you first began it
You got
What you want
Now you can hardly stand it though,
By now you know
It's not going to stop
It's not going to stop
It's not going to stop
'Til you wise up


You're sure
There's a cure
And you have finally found it
You think
One drink
Will shrink you 'til you're underground
And living down
But it's not going to stop
It's not going to stop
It's not going to stop
'Til you wise up

Prepare a list of what you need
Before you sign away the deed
'Cause it's not going to stop
It's not going to stop
It's not going to stop
'Til you wise up
No, it's not going to stop
'Til you wise up
No, it's not going to stop
So just...give up!!!!!!!

Can life give you second chance to correct it????

(song from magnolia...)

welcome!!!!

At times..you feel you want to start it all again....you make mistakes..people around you are telling you....you are wrong...you are taking a wrong path...you are running after things you should not be running...they are not worth you..but you are so lost in it that you keep running..you keep following what you dreamed endlessly like in Don Quixote.

You keep on running and running. You keep on reminding yourself...you tell yourself many times that you shouldn't be doing it... but at times you cant help it...cause you are a dreamer...following your dreams as an endless quest.

One fine day, you know you have to get out it. Earlier you come out of it, better it is for you. Just like a wake up call... you need wake up calls...that make you meet the reality...

It reminds me of a song

Sometimes when I am alone I wonder, Is their a spell I am under ....keeping me from seeing the real thing.....

I got my wakeup call today...I feel so fresh...so alive now..

Welcome to the new life Parimal!!!!!!

puzzle known as life....

Send a message to the unborn child
Keep your eyes open for a while

In a box high up on the shelf,
left for you, no one else

There's a piece of a puzzle known as life
Wrapped in guilt, sealed up tight

- from song 45 by shinedown

what are you doing??

Sometimes I feel like asking myself what am I doing?? What I am trying to be.. what I want to be..
this makes me ask ourselves ..why cant we be happy with what we are..what we have.. Why we are always running behind something we don't have..Is this gonna end somewhere.. why cant we be happy in whatever we have...

I think life is to realize..what all you looking for is actually you have..you just need to look inside.... :)

Rise And Fall

I do get this feeling many times... With every fall..you rise higher..May be any fall allows you to look at life afresh. It asks you to redefine your perspectives..which gives you a feeling you are born again..It adds freshness to your life..
So, it is not necessary to fear failures..many times just by fear of failure we don't give ourselves enough chance to live...

I had written a poem long back as a reply to one my friend's blog , which is lost now due to he deleted his blog. I am putting it again with some additions...

I don't fear the fall
I am ready to crawl
no matter how many times I fall
I will get up and stand tall

Falling is my destiny
getting up is my nature
Don't think it as a cage
It is just another page

fall is the past
rise is the future
worrying about these
is for stupid creatures


without fall there is no rise
without rise there is no fall
my friend this life is very small
every time just pick up the call

It is seized..
I am ceased..
trying to lease
another way

I am waiting...alone
looking at everything unknown
waiting for a tone
that is never heard

It is gone
don't mourn
carry on
ask yourself you have anything that you really own??

it is so clear
that flair
will not be seen again

it is so bad
that i am sad
and I don't want to get out of it..

and i know
now things as i see
the way I want them to be
will never happen that way

I wish to cry
breaking all my dams
leaving no cramps
in my heart behind

All I want to know
is how many compromises I should make
to fake
that I am happy!!!!!!!

though it is dark
and I used to love that spark
Now I love the dark

And I fear the light
as it brings..
new hopes new dreams
which I know
will be shattered as they have been

In the end
all I wish
is only peace
within me..

Will there be any harmony if everybody is playing guitar?????

to be free...

I am walking on a freeway
may be I know where I want to go
may be I don't..
may be I know what I am looking in my journey
may be I don't...
may be I am aware of what lies ahead
may be I am not
may be I am looking for a company
may be I am not
should I let someone steer it for me
should I follow someone so that I don't land alone
should i go fearless taking risk all the time..
should I care what other think of me
what is that I fear the most???
I know..one thing that nature hates the most..
it never likes to repeat itself..
i am a new experiment of nature..
why should I follow someone...why should let someone steer my wheel... which is the only thing I own
why should I fear landing alone..
I came alone..I will go alone..
why should I fear anything is this world..as
anyone cant take me away from me..
may be I have got the key
to be just me...
to be free...
to be free...

hey..can you tell me the meaning of settling down
is it growing old or getting tired of struggling on
is it to say I am tired and I am gone
when fighting on is no more fun

life is a game life is a song
when someone comes someone is gone
I don't know what to do
when your heart plays ping pong

when smile of someone makes your day
doesn't matter whether it is December or May

they say life is mean life is short
don't be late in the matter of heart

on one end of life I wish all the thrill
on the other side I feel I had enough of drill
this contradiction is here to stay
I think I should live only for the present day

who knows what tomorrow brings
why to care for the something that doesn't exists
current moment is my feast
let me live till tomorrow sleeps!!!

legacy of stupidity...

life is to realize how stupid you were a moment before;taking a pause to laugh at it the current moment and becoming more confident , polished , sophisticated in your future super stupid acts.
so, this legacy of stupidity continues...and it should continue... :)

moments...

There are moments in life which make you feel..life is not about winning..it is not about loosing...it is not about achieving something...It is all about experiencing...It is all about making friends as much as possible..It is all about sharing as much as possible ..It is loving everything life has given to you..It is all about leaving whatever you have the next moment as if never belonged to you..it is all about fooling yourself by not asking yourself decisions you take should really be taken..it is about not to think, stop translating your feelings at that moment..

Miss you Intel and Bangalore...

Mausam...

I am back to Lucky Ali after a long time..the song that is haunting me now is mausam.When I first heard sifar, the album to which Mausam belongs..I was mesmerized by each and every bit of it. Mausam later was used in Dollar dreams . That added a new flavor to that song making it more closer to my heart. Putting part of it which appeals me the most

Mausam bhi yaar hai gulshan gharbaar hai
Barkha ka saath hai aisi saugaath hai
Ab jaaye kab aaye kaise bolo
Jinke saath dil lagta hai, unke saath holo

Jaana kahan tha humko, kahan hum chal diye
Choti choti hasraton mein hum dhul mil gaye
Soch ke kya nikle the yeh kya hum kar gaye
Jo kehte woh na karte na in mein reh gaye

Rab yeh jaane ab kya hoga rastha hai mushkil
Kis chourahe pe khade hai yaar

seriously..I want to ask..Kis chourahe pe khade hai yar???

Thanks Lucky Ali for the song..and Syd Aslam for such a wonderful lyrics..

Return to Innocence....

This incident happened in guitar class I go these days..As I entered the class, I saw a place empty and boarded myself and my guitar on the sit. Then I looked around.. I saw a very cute little girl sitting on my right.She must be something like 10 years old. She was also looking at me.. I couldn't stop myself asking her name..

Me: Hi..Whats your name?
She: Hi..My name is Urvaja..but everybody calls me Urvi..
Me: Good..
Then I started practicing my guitar . Meanwhile, a student in our class who is kind of oldest one in class (45+)was leaving class and saw her and he must have had similar feeling as me and asked the girl..

Old guy: Hi..whats your name?
She:Urvaja...
Old guy: Very good... In which standard you are?
She: 4rth standard..
Old Guy: Very good..In which school?
She: In MPS/NPS Koramangala..(I didn't hear school name clearly)
Old guy: Very good...

And he went.. Then she looked at me and asked..

She: Why he was saying good so many times..?
Me: You are the youngest in the class and he is the oldest..so he was very happy seeing you...
She: Hmm..(Looking satisfied with my answer)
She: Do you know How old I am?

Now..questions that comes to my mind is who teaches girls to ask other guess their age at such an early stage? Must be genetically coming to create and maintain curiosity about their age.. :D

Now, I calculated as she is in 4rth standard..she must be around 9-10..

Me: you must around 9-10 ..
She: Great!!!! I am 9..

And again I got back practicing my guitar..meanwhile she was trying to do exercise given by our teacher..rather restlessly...
After sometime, as our teacher was not in room..our conversation started..

She: Where are your spects?
I was surprised...I was wearing contacts and how come she knows I wear spects...

Me: How do you know I wear spects?
She: I saw you wearing while you came ... the black ones..
Me: Oh..those are my sunglasses..
She: You look good with that. Why don't you wear it now..
I said to myself goooood...at least this little girl ..9 years thinks I look good :) . Back of the mind I was thinking girls of my age should learn from her and should have same feeling :P

Me: Thanks...but if I wear it now..people will consider I am blind..and with sunglasses in night and with playing guitar..people will start putting coins in front of me..
She:No..you are not going to play it on street or what..you are going to play in this class and nobody is going to put coins.. you know.. you should always BE POSITIVE..look at it positively..

I was floored...A little girl or angel I should say telling me to be positive..it was so cute...

She:(suddenly) What is your blood group?
Me: Be Positive..
She: Wow..Mine is also B+..look at my hands..they are so RED...

Then our teacher came and started playing a song..Tuze sab hai pata hai na Maa from Taare Zameen Par..and she suddenly asked
She: is this song in minor scale..?
Sir: No..It is in Major Scale..
She: How come...? it is a silent song....
Sir:....
She: Sir...Do you like Hindustani Classical?
Sir: Yes..
She: I LOOOOOOOVE hindustani classical..But I hate western music..

Our teacher was playing a song..and he missed a line in the song..
She: Sir....you always miss a line...
Sir:......

Then our conversation again started..
She: I have a keyboard at my home..
Me: Good... So what all you are learning..?
She: I am learning singing..Keyboard..drums..dance..Taekwondo..
Me: Are you planning to start a band..?
She: I already have a band..in school
Me:good(with a smile)
She: I have my own TV..own laptop..own iPoD..own home theater..and own room and I also have AC.. I have everyyyyyyything that a girl needs (smiles)
Me: very good..
She: and I have very good Mom and Dad..I Loooooooooove my parent..do you love your parents..?
Me: Off course..yes..
She: (smiles)...


She again asked me some guitar doubts in between as sir was not around..and last thing I remember she said was..
She: I want to learn everything in this world...(with an innocent smile..)

This whole interaction with this cute Angel made me think a lot..She is just a 9 year old..She is so enthusiastic about learning so may things..and she is doing it also..There is so much enthusiasm to take from her..There is so much innocence in her...I hope she should always find someone around who will keep her innocence intact...

May be every one of us was like her when we were that young...What has really happened to us..? Where we have lost that innocence..? Why we lost it ? Is there....is there any way to get it back...?

May be we haven't lost that innocence yet...it is somewhere in back of our minds ready to come back..we just have to open the door..
The only problem is.. In this bad bad materialistic world..if we try to be innocent ,it is kind of tough to survive...but can we get a place where we can be innocent again..or where you can rely to be innocent..

May be someone who is as innocent as you..The best person is you life partner..who is ready to walk with you all your life..with him it is safe to return for you to innocence.. and same holds for other person also...

If you find someone like that..then life will really become a fairy tale... isn't it?

My wait in ON... :)